Inner Peace

It has definitely been a while since my last post. There were pictures that I wanted to post up, but there were some issues.

Lately, I've been a little short tempered - my patience and tolerance were running low. I grumbled a lot to myself. But a lot of "me" time has definitely explained the short fuse. Twitter has also helped me a great deal when I subscribed to Tiny Buddha (@tinybuddha) that provides a lot of self help or motivational articles that have truly inspired me.

In our lives, we are so caught up with our work and material objects. We all have the same ultimate goal, bettering our lives and the lives of those who are dependent on us. But often times, people have mistakenly relate materialism with bettering lives, that our emotional needs are pushed aside.

There are days where you feel tired and demotivated but you pushed through because you have that one thought in your head; I need this to support my family. Of course, with a family in mind, you ought to be responsible and provide the best within your means. But, while you're so caught up with work, your smile disappears. Your love dims. Loved ones demand for your presence. I am definitely going through this with two men in my life; my father and Mike.

I was in that very same state while I was working; detached, zombified and not at all happy. I was fortunate, fortunate enough that I had no one depending on me for necessities. It took me 3 months to build up courage, finally put my feet down and said "I'm resigning". How can you leave a secure job when you don't even know what you want to do next? Scary isn't it? But also necessary. Good thing was that I was only supporting myself, and that if I didn't do it now, I will forever be sucked into that misery which sooner or later I need to get out of it.

Now, apart from an inarticulate idiot who aspires to be a journalist but lacks the impartial judgment and leaves crude, offensive updates on Facebook, I've never been happier in my life now with the 4 months break. I get to accompany my mum at home which I will miss dearly and I could set my mind straight on what I will do next.

Not only we shouldn't be the slaves to our lives, but we shouldn't be slaves to money. I am fortunate enough that I'm blessed in this family, but humility keeps me grounded. I lived on my savings for the past 4 months, though my parents have been too kind to offer me help. But I do pity those who dream of living the posh life drowned in designer brands. Of course, it is unfair for me to say because I'm lucky enough to wake up to designer things around me, but without them (which we used to be), I'm equally as happy. To me, designer brands are just names of people who did great social networking ;)